Salut. Long time. I m finally writing something.. Its not so easy. A lot of people here have one article, the first one, and, unfortunately, in the most of cases, the last one.. Or they dont have none.. And when you read these first articles, or you try to remember the other volunteers speaking in first weeks, you can feel a lot of good energy, desire, wish to make something usefull, to overthrow or at least try to move mountains. Everybody came here with different and at the same time similar aims.. To make change, to have change, to explore, to understand, to find, to test ourselves, just to help, to be usefull, to gain experience, to see more, to meet new people, to learn new languages and so on.. But where these aims disappears in month or two.. Its just my opininion. I think that lot of us just got tired of hiting their heads in the walls of formalities, rules, bureaucracy, limits and a lot of other stuff.. These walls exist, we want it or not.. Sometimes a lot of these things here seems so wrong, stupid and useless, that we want just shout, swear, run, protest, broke.. Its the easiest way to react i think, and its normal. But we dont have to stay like this to long, not to get stuck in phase of anger.. Here, far away from our homes, countrys, we are more sensitive to everything, its easier to influence us, all the feelings are stronger, more unpredictable.. But you will ask, what to do then?? We have two possibilities. Continue to be angry, upset, unhappy, to feel disadvantaged, misunderstood, useless.. Or to calm down, to think, to try see positive side(sometimes its very difficult, but this side always exist, even if not, we can create it just for ourselves..), understand that not all things in this world you can change, sometimes its easier to change your look, your opininion about those things. For example what sometimes seems for us like just disturbing, delay of work.. But for them (MC, our colleagues volunteers, other people..) it can be just normal tempo of work. Sometimes they are late, and seems so slow, often they forget promises and things which for us seems very important.. But we all are so different, its just really good possibility to understand this, to be tolerant, to learn something of this. Or not.. Anyway.. We dont have a lot of time here and we cannot (maybe its better..) repeat this expierence. Or they just can send us home one day.. You cant now.. Lets just do our best (more or less). Some of us have really a lot of experience, knowledges, strenght, motivation.. And maybe some are not so strong, brave, experienced, and they want to help, to be usefull, but sometimes they just dont know how, they are afraid to do something wrong, maybe they need just one kick in the ass.. Lets help one each other. No matter what.
Its just words, nothing special, i think everyone can find something familiar, similar. But if you didnt find nothing here, if you dont care, is your choice.. You can continue waste your time, sit at home, watching MTV and for all your problems blame Romania, people, bad weather, your organization and all the world.. Its just easier for them..
EVS should be European Voluntary Service, but sometimes it seems that its European Vacations Service.. Something totally wrong, you dont think so?
Ciau
