The cultural shock is gone. Get some interesting moments, but generally life is here is not so different like it was before my EVSstage. 7 months r not so long time in my 244 months long life stage. Just after this new experience, get also new point of view… returned back unfortunately sometimes I even felt kind of shame of my native people here after so open-minded and flexible persons in last months. Sometimes proud that I come from here, cause of mobility and fun spirit regardless of situation how is it in Latvia. But still…I can be me in here too!
Basically the things I complain the most is… I cannot stay for doing nothing, of course. So bought a block-note and start to plan something - in that way to feel a bit active and useful :p It is also really good opportunity to write down all new ideas, even during the night(really when I can’t sleep, that’s because I think what to do next. I guess I cancel again studies in my mind for this moment…..so…. pfff…:), also note specific websites which can make me satisfied in future, organize seminar about voluntary in Africa - which seems quite far from my needs and options. In my idea-shelf it is just an idea, which makes my mind occupied again. Yeah, and as well in my note I can write all reminders, cause In become lazy in Romania with my block-note, who was with me almost always like a dog of lapJ
I survived 1st long term parties and first mornings alone at home. No one says "goodmorning” from downstairs, no unnoing evening talks about latvian translating stuff. I guess the most I miss people mess around me in any twenty-four hours, in any place, twenty types of personalities.
I’m at home 2 and a half weeks. Now I can confess that all this time I blocked my feelings and memories, to make my way back here better and clearer. Today I recognize that also in here I'm back - I am a personality..just with 2 lifes. That’s maybe childish to think like that , but really it is like that. I don’t even talk about homes city, currency, language, cultures and specifics around, but about myself. It seems I didn’t lie in my motivation letter, than I can easily adapt in any society and live there without such a much previous habbits and normal dialy lifes activities. So what is normal dialy life?
Also For sure it is kind of pointless to talk about detalize time in Romania with my friends in here. There r different values, different topics. I think this is another level of project experience, it's continuing. Feelings, thoughts and views.
Am I ready to it finish it?
Still do not know how much did I change during theese 7 months in Romania but I think I grew double. For any people I met I think now I can write an essay about. So good feelin to know You, guys ;) I can bet that everyone on this part could write more and more lines, but the truth every body knows
I always think, that….we were so brave and in the same time crazy to approve projects in Romania, so I cant image reason to not organize meeting in future for FRIENDS.
Why this?
This weekend we have ExEVS seminar in Latvia, so I cannot hide anymore my thoughts and have to go back in past, a bit swim into time there. To compare projects, to complane, and to share. And the most perfect part - to meet latvian volunteers, just in different society. Will see how this athmosphere change peoeple back. We will miss You and love You! In case Ur ears start to burn and feel blush in the cheeks, don't worry - it just us, who think of You all! :p
